Love’s Going to Conquer All

Have you ever listened to a song for the first time on the radio and knew that it was meant for you to hear? I like to believe that things happen for a reason, so when I heard Dear Hate by Maren Morris feat. Vince Gill, I knew it was no coincidence. If you scroll down I have added the video as well as the lyrics to the song. I want you to listen and read the lyrics with an open mind. I have wanted to blog about this feeling for a while but the words weren’t there until I heard this particular song.

I have added the lyrics here;

Dear Hate
I saw you on the news today
Like a shock that takes my breath away
You fall like rain, cover us in drops of pain
I’m afraid that we just might drown
Dear Hate
Well, you sure are colorblind
Your kiss is the cruelest kind
You could poison any mind
Just look at mine
Don’t know how this world keeps spinning ’round and ’round
You were there in the garden, like a snake in the grass
I see you in the morning staring through the looking glass
You whisper down through history and echo through these halls
But I hate to tell you, love’s gonna conquer all
Dear Hate
You were smiling from that Selma bridge
In Dallas, when that bullet hit and Jackie cried
You pulled those towers from the sky
But even on our darkest nights
The world keeps spinning ’round
You were there in the garden, like a snake in the grass
I see you in the morning staring through the looking glass
You whisper down through history and echo through these halls
But I hate to tell you, love’s gonna conquer all
Dear Love
Just when I think you’ve given up
You were there in the garden when I ran from your voice
I hear you every morning through the chaos and the noise
You still whisper down through history and echo through these halls
And tell me love’s gonna conquer all
Gonna conquer all
Hate is everywhere. It is lurking at every corner. It will come around when we least expect it. It is the evil in this world. It can make or break anyone. It can consume us. It can win if we let it. I first heard this song after a couple days filled with bad news and some hurtful words. I was contemplating someone’s actions and why they were being so bitter to me and others around me. I was trying to understand why they felt so much hate. I came home to my husband, talked to him about how I was feeling and tried to let this feeling of anger and aggression go. He listened to me vent and took a deep breath and said to me; “Babe, first you won’t be able to understand why people do what they do or say what they say. Second, you need to stop looking at the negative, the angry, the hatred and focus on what is in front of you. What God has blessed YOU with. Do not be concerned why others are treating us harshly because they have to answer to God, not us. We will continue to pray and focus on us and our sons.” Now many of you don’t know my husband personally but he never EVER shares emotional stuff. He is our rock that keeps everything to himself and just lets me (the over emotional one) express myself. Therefore when he gave me that piece of advice I knew I needed to really ponder what my husband said. While listening to this song on repeat.. it dawned on me. Why should I let someone else’s feeling of hatred consume my thoughts and my day to day life? I have an incredible husband, two wonderful boys, a family who loves and supports me, and a God to give me strength when I feel weak. This takes me back to what I overcame in my post Rejection too let go and let God because even on our darkest nights HE will be there… When I wake in the morning the world would not have stopped but continued to spin and that’s exactly what I need to do. I need to wake up every day and continue to move forward. Live my life and not focus on others opinions or thoughts of me. As a family, we will continue to grow together, cherish life with one another, make memories and put our faith and love above all else. Hate will not win because our LOVE for each other will conquer all.
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Stop & Breathe

For about 5 months now my life has been an endless rollercoaster. I understand life, in general, is a rollercoaster but it should more like the Superman at Six Flags, not the Scream. If you haven’t traveled to Six Flags Theme Park and rode those two rides let me explain. The Superman brings you up high, down low, all around, upside down, left to right, down and back up again. On the other hand, Scream does the complete opposite. It brings you up high and straight back down with small up and down motions in-between. Since you can kinda understand the rides you can see why I would rather be on a different ride than the Scream. As a consequence of living my life on the scream, my physical and mental emotions have been all over the place. Trying to cope and understand the up and down motions within the last few months really took a toll on me. I was in a mindset to be on the go constantly without taking care of my mind and body. It wasn’t until my smithboys made me stop and breathe in the fresh air a week ago did I understand my life needed to slow down. I picked up smithboy#1 and as we were passing Pflugerville Lake we saw people kiteboarding. Normally we would drive by and watch for a second but both boys seemed really interested. At that point, I decided to drive up to the parking lot, and walk the boys to the pier.

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The wind was strong and it was chilly but it felt so relaxing. To not have a care in the world about my next move, or think about anything else was comforting. It was something I haven’t done in quite a while. We stood there watching everyone enjoy the sun, wind, and water. Smithboy#1 was in amazement how high they got and how they were able to do flips in the air. He couldn’t wait to tell daddysmith. Smithboy#2 kept saying “wow” and “cool mommy”. I was explaining to the boys how the guys weren’t cold, what wetsuit was, and how the wind and kite were able to carry them around the water. We watched for about 5 minutes just taking everything in.

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As we all three stood there I thought to myself, I wish I could go back, start over, change a few steps and tell myself to stop and breathe throughout the last few months. Since I do not have magical powers to do so (shh, don’t tell my boys that) I found that I can only correct my mistake and try to not let it happen again. The boys were getting cold and the wind was getting stronger so we decided to head home. While walking to the car, I couldn’t help but look back and really take in the scenery. How beautiful the day was, how happy my boys were, and how today I was able to freeze time even just for a second. The entire way home I thought how tremendous it felt to savor that exact moment with my boys. Although they were unaware of what I learned on the pier that day it will later be a lesson I can teach them. & as a mother, there is no greater feeling than to do just that. So the next time life gets ahead of you..stop, take a deep breath and start over.

 

Christmas Break 2017

This Christmas break was without a doubt one of the easiest breaks the smiths could ask for. I was off for an entire week and a half and daddysmith had a couple of days off as well. I did something different this year and decided to volunteer at my church HCBC. If you haven’t read my previous post The Wonder of Christmas you defiantly should go and check it out to see why Christmas was different for my family and myself. But like every year around holidays, we venture to my nanas for our annual Christmas dinner. Now when I say dinner I really mean @ noon. Anyway once we got to my Nanas everyone was already there so as a family we said grace and jumped right into eating. We were all so focused on sharing old memories, opening up our presents, and watching my favorite football team, we forgot to take any pictures. Except when my mom, sister and I went in the front yard for a mini photoshoot.

 

Once our photoshoot was done we went inside said our goodbyes and headed home before going to our next family “supper”. After we came home settled our tummies and rested our bodies we headed over to Granny’s and Grandpa’s house. We were very happy to see they won second place in their neighborhood for the best lights and decorations. I was told over and over the boys and I just had to go, see their house at night time because they spent so much time putting it all together. So I really needed them to win or I might have not heard the end of it. LOL. Even though they came in second the house looked fabulous and they were happy with the second place award. One thing I really want to mention is how freaking GREAT my mother-n-law is. She asked me about a week before Christmas eve what I would like to eat at the dinner. Of course, I said her manicotti because hers is out of this world but I was just throwing ideas out. Not only did she make the traditional meal for everyone she made me my favorite meal manicotti, she also made my sister-n-law gluten-free broccoli and cheese soup with crescent rolls. With that being said I wanna give a huge shout out to Granny Holland; YOU ROCK & thank you for making this mama super happy! Christmas Day was upon us and our only stop was @ the original Smiths. Driving up to Volente is always a beautiful site but arriving to see old videos of the family, paw-paw smith and daddysmith was absolutely perfect. I am so proud to say I love the family I was married into. They all have welcomed me with open arms and always supported daddysmith and I as a couple. Being around them and getting to hear and see the memories they created over the years is the best feeling. I am so thankful for them and of course Nick & Dani’s cooking because that is a perk too! Christmas has finally come to an end and normally we would be excited for the day but this year we were all a little sad. We normally get smithboy#1 on Christmas Day but this year was different and we were scheduled to get him on the 28th of December at noon. Daddysmith had to go into work for a couple of hours but would meet us at home. I picked my big man up right on the dot. I could tell he was beyond happy to see me because he hugged for a good two minutes before I put him in the car. Daddysmith told me he might not be feeling well so I decided to take him to the doctor. There we found out he had an upper respiratory infection and we couldn’t go to the Trail of Lights. We were all a little disappointed but my sons’ health always comes first. Little did he know the entire family was still coming over to open up presents!! Granny & Grandpa Holland, Nanny, Nae-Nae, Rj and P all came to visit and join our Smith Christmas party. I wanna give another personal shout-out to my mama for the best PJs the smith family could ask for. I am a plaid lover ask any of my family and friends so THEY ARE PERFECT! Also thanks sissy for taking the best photos of us even if we almost to never look at the camera.

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The weekend was just beginning and we had no idea what was in store for us. We didn’t have any plans but to lounge around all weekend, play with our new toys and donate all our old ones. One thing I can proudly say is my sons love to donate their old toys to kiddos who go without. Daddysmith and I have always taught the smithboys the power of giving. Anytime the boys have a birthday or when Santa comes to town we donate all their unused toys. My smithboys donated THREE BAGS full of toys! & this year it finally hit smithboy#1 on why we do what we do. He told me he wanted to give away all his old toys he never plays with because a little boy might not have gotten anything from Santa and wanted to make someone else happy. Now if that doesn’t warm your heart and a bring a tear to your eye, I don’t know what will. I am so fortunate to have such amazing, smart, kind-hearted little boys. I like to believe daddysmith and I are doing a pretty dang good job at raising them. After dropping off all the bags we decided to take our littles to Main Event. Celebrate their generosity and showing them good deeds go a long way. With our Christmas break over I can’t help but to feel so much love and happiness throughout the entire time we were all together. We as a family love to be able to spend quality time with one another and enjoy making new memories. This break might not have included new places to go and adventure too but staying up late, watching new movies, eating popcorn, playing video games and being a family is more than enough for us. We will forever be grateful for one another and the love we share as a family. Thank you family and friends for partaking in Smith’s Christmas break. We appreciate all your love and support for us four. Most importantly thank you Lord for all you do. Your love truly never fails.

A heart full of love for Jesus Christ

My family and I have been worshiping God at Hill Country Bible Church for a year now. My boys have attended their children’s ministry and absolutely LOVE it! This past Sunday smithboy#1 asked if he was going to his bible school because he really wanted too. As a mother and firm believer of Jesus Christ my love tank filled with joy. When we dropped him off he gave daddysmith and I a hug and walked right in waving goodbye. Daddysmith and I went to our normal spot and a hour later we went to pick him up. He was so excited to share what he learned with us. Below is the project he did with help from an older student. Who was so nice to listen, write and draw for him. img_6257.jpg

He started to show us the bracelets he made for daddysmith, smithboy#2, me and himself. Described the colors on them and what they represented. We then proceeded to go over his drawings…

B: He said; Mom & Dad because we always pray for one another and his neighbor because we pray for people around us.

L: He said; I didn’t write anything because I always listen

E: He said; I drew Kashy and me at the table with apples, blueberries, banana, oranges, and a HUGE pizza because we LOVE pizza!

S: He said; I drew me asking Kashy if I can tie his shoes since he’s little and doesn’t know how.

S: He said; mommy I didn’t draw anything because I wanted to play with my friends.

As he was sharing these with me I couldn’t help but to notice how much wonder in learning and sharing what Jesus means to him. Daddysmith and I have grown closer too God and too see our son grow closer to him as well is incredible. From what he learns every Sunday at bible church to practicing it everyday at home is a gift from God. Our smithboy#2 amazes me just as much as smithboy#1. Every time we sit at the table for breakfast, lunch or dinner we pray as a family. Thanking the Lord for all our blessings and for each family member. Sometimes the boys will pray for their toys, games and whatever daddysmith bought them that day. The past couple of times we’ve been in a rush to start eating. After a few bites smithboy#2 will remind us that we forgot to pray by simply saying “AMEN!”. & if you know our little man personally you’ll know he will not just say amen but scream amen until we all say it and or stop eating and pray. Our boys have a heart full of love for not only daddysmith, myself and each other but for Jesus Christ. My husband and I are so proud of our boys and the little men they are growing up to be. They are bold, bright, strong, loving boys. As parents and the Lords servants we will continue to teach them right from wrong. We will raise them to have faith in HIM, and to never forget; we love HIM, because he first loved us. (John 4:19)