Good Intentions

The church my boys and I attended had a sermon series a few months ago about Killing Giants Before They Kill You. Within the series I found one that hit really close to home. It was the giant of good intentions. Now, I will be the first to admit when I try to do something positive it comes out negative. I will also be the first to admit when I feel in my heart I am right about a situation I will not hesitate to back down. We all have good intentions, some intentions fail while other exceed our highest expectation. Yet we still continue to live our life like we are benefiting from helping others. As in “I thought that was a good idea too (insert good intentions here)”. So when I heard the sermon The Giant of Good Intentions for the first time I immediately thought oh my stars Pastor Tim is talking directly to me. Of course, there were like 100 more people in the room but I felt like that Sunday God was showing me the steps I need to take. Giving myself not only insight into my direction but the guidance I need to overcome this giant. Here we are a few months later and as I was cleaning out my car I found the notes I took that very day. Reading;

  • Don’t assume good intentions make you untouchable
  • When it comes to obedience, sweat the small stuff

Apparently, I needed a little reminder of the sermon these days because I am in a sticky situation right now. I have gone above and beyond for someone for a couple of years and so far my intentions have only backfired. People move on and they try to see the positive in every situation..right? NOPE! Not when it comes to my problem, seeing it has only gotten worse. Rereading my notes as well as going back and listening to the Paster talk about good intentions only lead me to reevaluate the outcome of the last few “good intentions” I had. Well here goes nothing…

  1. I participated in being smithboy#1 soccer coach with my husband’s ex and at the time I thought hey this would be great co-parenting for us! (feeling untouchable)
  2. I put in all the effort when the others didn’t and I was still receiving the short end of the stick. (not sweating the small stuff)

Lastly, I was so caught up in the direction I wanted to go yet I wasn’t fully thinking of Gods intentions and his story for me. How in life everything happens for a reason, and its all based on God plan for us. We might at times don’t see it or even want to acknowledge it but the plan is there. The Lord is there waiting for us. To help us pick up the missing pieces of our life. After all, he doesn’t expect us to be perfect, but to have faith in him. Because without faith were would we be?

Pumpkin cookie

19 days into October and I have yet to have a pumpkin spice latte, decorate inside our house for Halloween, eat pumpkin bread or even carve a pumpkin for that matter. So today at lunch I saw a huge pumpkin cookie and thought yes I need that. But to be honest I feel like anytime I step into Randals or Target I turn into a implusive buyer. I start going crazy with putting stuff in my cart that I DO NOT need. One day I bought 10 cookie cups. Who in the world buys 10 cookie cups? Yeah.. this girl… anywho like I was saying, this year we weren’t really feeling the holiday spirit. Therefore I had a great reason to buy the cookie. Right? Once the smithboys were finished with their dinner they were allowed to start decorating.

Since I’m a RDA I rarely let my boys have tons of sugar so the smithboys were extra grateful. As we all sat around the table I noticed something a little different with each boy. Daddysmith was not thinking about work or bills just feeling completely stress free. Smithboy#1 was happy to be involved with making a dessert for the family. Smithboy#2 was over the moon his brother was showing him how to decorate for the first time. Watching all three of my smiths feeling joy and happiness made myself feel whole. God truly works in mysterious ways. Tonight I think he showed my family that even sitting down and decorating a pumpkin cookie for a few moments makes all the difference. We get caught up with our everyday life’s that we don’t stop and appreciate the small things. So next time you’re at HEB, Target, or Randals stop and pick up a little something for your family or partner. You never know what it might do for you or for them.

Ps. The cookie had so much artificial sugar we only took like two bites. But hey it was the memory we created with one another that matters the most.