When is enough… enough? 

As the days turn into months and months into years people evolve. Some change and better themselves with positivity and acceptance while others fall in a trap of deep selfishness and insecurities. Recently my husband and I went to a class at the church we’ve attended for quite sometime now. The class was called next steps. We knew going to praise God on Sundays, listening to the pastors message and applying it to our everyday life’s was something we enjoyed doing together. So what can we do next to get closer to God and to get spiritually closer to one another? HCBC had the answer.. Next Steps! Like I said before we attended the class and came out with a clearer understanding of what it meant to be apart of Gods world and what it means to fully accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior. The lady who was instructing the class drew a line on a white board and this is what it looked like;

You                                                                The Lord

She said you are on the left and you think you are on a journey to be on the right but you’re wrong. We attempt different things in our life to become more like him. God is understanding, loving, forgiving, compassionate, selfless. We as humans are loving and understanding but also angry, despiteful, and manipulative. The lord does not carry those attributes. We think by volunteering, pay for someones starbucks, coming to church every Sunday, and praying to him we are going to more like him. Well y’all are wrong. You need not to please God or to be like him. He created you to be YOU. Therefore we need not to go trough life with the plans we have created for ourselves but we need to enjoy his plan, his path. We all at one point tried to be someone we aren’t. Tried to impress, tried to one up one another, tried to point the finger and blame someone else for our flaws. But when is enough, enough? When are we going to stop trying to be what social media wants us to be? When are going to stop listening or worrying about what others think about us? When are we going to look in the mirror and be completely content with who is looking back? Today was a difficult day for me. Theses past couple of weeks I was pretending to be a person who someone wanted me to be. Entertaining others wants and needs before mine. I was going backwards in my journey, & today was the day the walls of pretending, lies and insecurities came crumbling down. I felt hurt but also relieved. I said to myself enough is enough. I will no longer let this persons negativity get to me. I will no longer take steps back on my path. I will no longer be a person SHE wants me to be. I will be the person HE created me to be. Enough was enough. At this moment I ask you.. when you look at yourself in the mirror are you who he created you to be or what society wants you to be. Is enough.. enough?

Soccer mom meets soccer coach

I picked up a new hobby these next few months…y’all are personally looking at smithboy#1 soccer coach! Oh yes, you absolutely read that right. I am PAYSL soccer coach for the 2017 fall season. If you personally know me from my younger years, you would know I have never played soccer nor have I watched a single soccer game. Why? First, it was too much running in my opinion and two I’ve never been good at kicking a ball around. BUT I am determined to make this season the absolute best for my son and his team. My mother law, husband/daddysmith, both smithboys, and I all went to Academy to get the gear we would need. It was easy enough to get soccer cleats, shinguards, ball and socks for smithboy#1 but what in the heck do I need to be a coach. My googled listed looked a little like this:

  • Whistle
  • Soccer ball
  • Cones

Now my husbands and his mothers list looked a little different:

  • Soccer ball
  • Whistle
  • Cones
  • Soccer bag
  • Rolling cart (if you are a sports person you know what I am talking about. If you aren’t, look at the following pic.)

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    Did we really need this? No but we got a camo one and it does look pretty cool.
  • 3 Camping Chairs to sit and watch the game (not just two adult ones but a toddler one for smithboy #2)
  • Shinguards for smithboy#2
  • Practice socks
  • Sliders
  • Clipboard

As you can tell, both of them obviously knew what they were doing and wanting. So who’s list did we use? Both of course! Because Granny (mother-n-law) can never say no to her grandsons. This past Thursday was our first team practice. With my fingers crossed, I was hoping I had players who played before. I was in for surprise and half of the kids played 2017 spring ball! 45 minutes later practice was over, the kiddos were exhausted, parents were happy and I was dripping in sweat. Now with that being said I want to personally thank Pinterest for all the how to’s, pictures and drills. Mom’s if you haven’t got a Pinterest I highly suggest you do, it is a HUGE LIFE SAVER! Saturday was upon us and that only means one thing, game day! @ 12:30 we played our very first game against the tigers and won! Since the league says the kids are too young and just need to learn the fundamentals they did not keep score. However in my eyes and the kiddos eyes our team is number one! Way to go Tornados and lets keep it up!

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  First practice| Go Tornados

** The rolling cart was a huge success. I was able to pack the soccer bag with all the essentials, the 3 chairs, toys, waters and smithboy#2 small toddler body in the cart and roll it to the field. Daddysmith 1 – Mamasmith 0